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a note to her..

turns out to be, that i'm very much dependent on my girlfriend.. she's much more mature than me in the sense that she knows clearly what is right or wrong in a relationship, and the rationality of my actions.. thanks for pointing it out to me, and i'm really tryin my best to get rid of the old and start afresh with a better and more trustable front.

seriously, i'm the more dependent party in the relationship. i'm always the one making foolish decisions, giving stupid excuses to cover up and never really admitting that i was wrong although i kinda know that i am. yeah that's one part which i gotta change- my stubborn attitude.

really.. thanks for being there for me and being such a great listener.. i hope i could do that for you when u need an ear too..

ever since the past few days, i realise that i can't hide myself from you, and something that tells me that i can't pretend in front of you, that i gotta let u know everything. although i don't know what might be the outcome, whether you might be frightened off, i just gotta let this out and give it a shot. and after knowing that u really do support me (albeit maybe feeling hurt by my words in the process), i suddenly realise how could i go on without this girl. you're the someone which i can never live without.. someone so understanding who understands every part of me, even those which i hide deep within myself. i find it so natural to tell you things that i'm even afraid to tell myself, knowing that i might freak myself out after that.

sometimes i don't understand myself, and there u are listenin to me and givin me support.. and the confidence to shine brightly once again for you and for me.

cherishing you with every last ounce of passion left in my frail heart.

love,

alvinkei