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another empty day without much things to do..

i can't say im tired of my life.. because there's so many things for me to do but somehow i don't have the driving force to move my ass and do the stuffs that i want..

i wana

- spray some shit
- learn 'the extreme'
- learn 'without you'
- relearn 'revo'
- exercise
- study
- clear my pimple
- drink
- find money

but then.. i always THINK of doing things but hardly get the motivation to DO it. that's how i spent my whole day.. while i'm studyin, i think of playin piano, so i stopped at my books and went home tried to play, but then while im playin piano, i think of playin guitar, so i stop and go upstairs play guitar. while im playin my guitar, i feel guilty cos im supposed to be studyin

so in the end nothing is achieved everyday.. everything is a distraction to me.. i can't do many tings at once.. i wana learn and be good in so many things but everytime i'm doin something, there seems to be lack of dedication into doin it.. i hardly put CONTINUOUS effort into anything i do. this is really called 'warm warm chicken shit' (hangat hangat tahi ayam)..

i wan to be godlike.. but aspiring to be god isn't gonna make me god unless i start putting in continuous effort into every shit that i do.

i always believe in this quote.. i duno its from who but this is the way i think..

"either be god, or don't exist at all,

either do it well, or don't start at all"