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i finally went to club last nite... in my dreams.

dreamt that i entered the club.. no idea what club but who gives a fuck.. im happy =D

this shows how deprived i am from drinking and partying... i haven't stepped into a club for more than 2 months already, while i'm just sittin here on the sidelines seein ma frens go n have fun..

but nevertheless, feeling quite blank lately.. maybe cos my gf's mood ain't good these few days, and also i keep seeing my tummy goin bigger n bigger..

sometimes when im bored i smack my tummy n watch it wobble few times.. then i dam scared, wana diet .. but then when got food in front of me.. or when i walk past food shop.. i can't stop myself from tinking of eating (which i go on to eat anyways)..