a▓▓▓▓▓ is ..

ahh, back to work today. full shift zomfg la T_T

and summore i woke up so early today 6am and cant seem to fall asleep again..

geez i hope i haf the fuckin strength to stay awake til 10pm tonite..

just read some blogs about some of my old frens.. and suddenly a thought came to my mind..

how am i different now compared to last time, i mean the time which my old friends could identify me as?

i don't really have any idea.

that day bumped into one of my closest fren in high school and he said im really different.. maybe looks la? i dunno. i remembered i went thru the lalazai phase when i was in secondary school and 1st year of college.

thank god i dropped out of the lalazai ah beng look sometime last year..

what i mean ah beng is.. pop up the collar, wear flashy clothes, funky colored hair. haha!

i still remembered i used to have metallic red hair..

and long hair too.. altho some ppl say tat i look korean, but most ppl say i look messy! haha

when thinkin back about it, i really go "wat de fuck was i thinkin that time?"

i guess "everyone goes thru this ah beng and ah lian phase.." quoted from my colleague..

workin there really shed new light on how i view things.. maybe its because my colleagues share their experiences with me, and teachin me the shit they went thru so that i could learn from their mistakes.. sometimes i wonder if i could think like that, but probably not, because maybe im fuckin 20 and im not expected to act or think beyond my age. i guess i'll have to go thru this stage where making mistakes are a norm, and we would actually learn from it and mature by ourselves in the future.