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first and foremost, happy 25th to my dearest yvonne leong sin ye. it has been an awesome ten months being together with you with numerous ups and downs.. thanks for being by my side and lettin me love you..

just few days ago, we celebrated our 300th day.. and altho things didn't turned out as planned, i really felt warm and fuzzy inside when she presented her bbq chicken wings to me.. its really damn tasty and hopefully next time when ur ma wife u'll cook that often. haha! and she also gave me a small card.. then i was thinking (huh.. rely like this only ah) but i aso happy happy la smile smile at her.. then sudenly she gave me anoter piece.. a4 size.. then on it was a certificate.. for being an endearing lovely boyfren to yvonne leong sin ye. hahaha !!! so damn cute !

i wana frame that cert and put it on ma table soon! my chick is so creative and cute. last time i gave her somethin like a 'voucher for free hugs' and she reciprocated with an achievement certificate! haha. den i was actually thinkin, for fun la.. .. somethin like "congrats for being able to tahan me for 300 days" hahahaha.. surely she'll kill me if she reads this.

darling, i know ur havin ur exam now.. im givin u my full support and do whatever u like and try to accomodate ur demands.. but i hope that next time u'll appreciate what i'm doin .. because sometimes i feel suffocated but yet i know that u need my support and presence, that's why i decided to leave everythin aside and just to make you happy. darling, i love u and u know that ur my only one.

i know u were disappointed when i didn't update my blog.. i'm sorry i didn't know that u checked it so often and just to find that nothing's been written.

u remember that time when i told u, im not sure whether to give u the 'actual present' or something else for 300 days? actually, i'm really not sure if i should ever give it to you.

you see, i've been folding a star for everyday i've been with you.. and i jus bought a huge ass vase to put the stars in.. and for (almost) everyday until now i'm still foldin a star for every day we go thru as a couple, whether happy or sad. and i don't think i'll ever wanna give it to you because i really hope that i can still fill the vase with a star every passing day.

i'm sorry for the pain and shit i've caused. i love you baby.