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okay so here's a proper post that i haven't been doin for at least 2 weeks (i think).

been caught up in some crazy shit recently, and i'm not done doin crazy shit for 2009 yet! i still have 2 days to go and 2009 better end with a fuckin huge blast!

nowadays i'm kinda financially tight, and i feel so bad because i can't get anythin for my gf for xmas.. she used to be particular about what she receives during special occasions, but since after being with me, i kinda dragged down her expectations.. i don't know if it should be a good thing for me or not, because now she doesn't mind not receiving anything because i'm a broke nigga.. but on the other hand i feel bad because she doesn't get what she should deserve..

and the gift i made for her.. well yeah people might say it's nice but when u strip it down to its bare bits, what the heck i used? erm.. all 'free' or 'unwanted' stuffs like cardboard boxes, shoe boxes, tshirt boxes, some colored paper etc.. i'm such a cheapskate.. but don't bash me too much because i really put my heart in it T_T though it didn't really turn out as good as i wanted it to be.

nowadays i tend to feel blank very fast.. i'm used to life on the fast lane.. and when u ask me to slow down, i feel as if there's no exhilaration.. i'm addicted to the adrenaline/alcohol rushes and i'm craving for it almost every damned second.

oh yeah i wana reconstruct my blog.. gettin kinda bored of the layout. i've added a link to a mobile site on the top of the page if anyone of you (or if anyone at all) reads my blog from a handphone/other handheld devices.. i realy think that the mobile version is much neat, easier to read and loads faster on ur phones !!!