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this few days im very empty.

so im tryin to rebuild my spirit and set my mood right and clear my mind.

i hope goin for activities and meetings will make me cheer up.. just now went for cf and then i was surprised they even got some bible application on the phone O_O

later goin to support my friend LEO club altho i don rely have much enthusiasm in doing community service i just wana fill up my time and hopefully get into the right mind to do right things.

im feeling retarded, empty, restless..

din c my gf for quite long alredy.. feel disconnected from her =(

i dont know what to smile at nowadays.. i mean what to smile for.. i cant see what im supposed to be happy about.. whatever i think about will make me stressed.. heck, even thinkin about my own birthday will make me stress because i dont know what to get for myself. actualy i know what i want to get for myself but i just don have the money to get it.

buyin stufs for myself used to be the one thing that never fails to make me happy and feel on top of the world.. but now it doesnt anymore i don know why.. (actually i feel like buying another bag this year)

ok let me recollect how many bags i have already..

1. jansport (left most) - bought in world of sports (rm59).. this is my travelling bag.. when i go for trips i use this

2. neighborhood (black one) - came with the jap magazine.. obviously i bought the magazine (rm40) for the bag.. haha! i used to use this bag quite often last time since i don have a nice nice bag yet. and since its free stuff, quality also sucks la.. i carry books and alot of crap last time so now bottom there tear abit abit

3. nike acg messenger (rm449) the black bag with funky blue color below the neighborhood bag - this is my college bag.. i carry this bag when i nid to carry books.. the bag itself is also quite heavy already so i only use this when i feel extra strong in the morning to carry a heavy bag.

4. headporter plus (top right) - i also got this from a jap magazine (rm40).. free stuff also but quality better than the neighborhood one. the shape is like round cylinder so abit weird shape. i carry this bag when go for short trips, or sometimes i carry my books and water in it.

5. headporter waist bag (right column, in the middle row) - this is my fav bag to carry around everywhere.. can carry many shit inside like wallet, tissue, torchlight, sweets, earphones, plaster and watever shit la.. i can even put 2 small bottles of beer inside. i got this cheaper than its original price rm789

6. extreme waist bag - this is my first waist bag bought from extreme i think its rm59.. i used to carry it long long time ago but nowadays when im going 'not so important' places i wil carry this instead of the headporter..

i stil got few more bags but i dont know where are they because i hardly use it nowadays.. my bags are my fav companion anytime and anywhere.. u noe so many times already i was deciding what to carry in my bag, and which bag to use, then i walk out of the house halfway to lrt then i realise "oh fuck forgot my phone". a bag is like an armor to me.. haha i cant rely leave home without a bag.. i become like girl liao. haha!

oh yeah this is the song me and cyh been searching for a fuckin fuckin long time.. finally jamie found it.. hahaha