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i lost the will to do anything

i wan to quit piano.. i hate playing those faggot exam songs which i hate to play, i hate to hear and i don give a fuck about practising. the tunes suck and i cannot last more than 5 minutes sitting down in front of my piano a week.

i lost the interest and i don even feel like touching it. every week i force myself to at least touch the piano for 5-10mins maximum so i wont feel guilty about goin to class without practising.

i don even want to play piano to relax or to play some modern tunes which i like to play on the piano last time.

i always THINK of playing it but when i sit in front of the piano i just can't wait to get away from it.

the feeling is really not there anymore. i feel dead. i feel like my fingers are not supposed to touch the piano.

i feel like running away. my mum is forcing me to take exam and i really don wana practise those faggot tuned exam songs

my computer is being fucked up and nobody can tell me whats the fucking problem.

im sick of going back to digital mall for the 4th time this week to ask them WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH MY FUCKING COMPUTER.

cmon, i bought a new com from ALL-IT and even the first day the graphics in dota aso got problem already. dota is not a graphic demanding game, even my chapalang sohai old computer can play it without any graphic issues. then i tried to download the latest driver and install, end up all my drivers got fucked up.

i sent it back to ALL-iT to reformat my com and they said after reformat my graphic card shud b ok. i was skeptical, took it back n try dota again - macibai same problem ..

i took it back, demand them to try another graphic card for me, i was quite sure its the graphic card defect. so top up rm100 and change to supposingly a better one. i was so happy when they tested it there it was fine, until i brought it home. open my fucking dota hardly 10minutes then i can see the same problem di.

then dey said it could be my warcraft 3 error. so ok la, i go buy a new wc3 installation cd and reinstall my wc3, hoping it wil turn out fine . after 15minutes of playing - MACIBAI FUCKER PUKI NIASING ASSHOLE FUCKED UP BALLS SHIT GODDAMN SAME MOTHERFUCKING PROBLEM..

i wish i could slap this fucking computer and spit on it but i can't because i have to bring it back ask them repair/ actualy FIND OUT WHY GOT THIS FUCKING PROBLEM and pray that it'll work well.

i even ask on online forum and everyone is telling me different thing.

right now the only hope is that its the MOTHERBOARD problem.. i tried everything else ppl say in the forum and all also don work, so the only one left that someone said was the PCI 16x slot on the motherboard got problem.

niasing tomoro i supposed to go sing k and release my fucked up stress end up also have to cancel. summore niasing tomoro i got music class i so dam fucking puki lazy to go. after music class must come back and go with digital mall AGAIN for the 4th time within 10 days and bring my goddamn fucking stupid cibai computer.

FUCK MY LIFE LA.. CIBAI FUCK..

I JUST WAN TO PLAY DOTA ITS SUCH A SIMPLE GAME BUT WHY WHY WHY WHY NIASING MY FUCKING COMPUTER WICH IS SUPPOSED TO BE MUCH BETTER THAN MY OLD COM CANNOT PLAY???? CIBAI FUCKER NIASING FUCK KAO YOU LA SOHAI COMPUTER