12 more days to go.. im stil countin. been waitin for about 3 months now and hopefully i'll get the answer im lookin for. i don need to say what i'd do when she comes back because i don't know what to do either. its just following my intuition ..u know? normally before a soldier goes to war they'd have a plan A , a plan B and sometimes until plan D.. all these strategic maneuvers are useless against the heart.. sometimes i tell myself 'okay do this and u'll make her a bit hurt but yearn for u a bit more' but all those things never turned out the way i wanted it to be. these kind of shit tactics that i teach my friends couldn't work out in my situation maybe because i'm dealing with a uhh.. special girl .. or soemthin like that. u know some typical girls can be predicted quite easily.. but she.. sometimes its easy and sometimes its fuckin difficult. when i'm with her, its easy to predict.. but when she's with someone else then its a different story. i could play the dirty way by going thru her mum but i hate to bring parents into rship issues.. it just isn't fair for the girl if her mum's decision contrasts from hers. everyone told me to wait.. and i'll just wait.. and not make the same mistake that one of my fren did which fucked everything up - waiting for 1 year, and after 11 months he fucked things up on the month before she comes back (i hope u don read dis, u know who u are and u might emo again) . if ma fren can wait 11 months then what's 11 days for me? haha. i know things couldn't pick up from where we left even if we do get back together again, it takes time and if this december is a success, i'll be lookin forward to the next time she comes back, so during that time period we could catch up on things, and share our non-filtered emotions. i'll be lookin at this as a uhh...lesson.. i guess this would be my first major lesson in rship, i never got into such a fucked up position before.
time may change your heart by my heart remains the same to you
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